Stressing out...

I can't sleep. I can't think straight. I have found myself crying on and off throughout the night and have been unable to stop it.

Tomorrow will either make or break my holidays for the year of 2008 and if my holiday is ruined, I have to keep reminding myself that it is not my fault.

After dealing with this problem for as long as I can remember now, I never thought in a million years it would come down to something like this.

It is now 330 in the morning and I have to wait until 9 to find out how I will be spending my holidays. Did I do the right thing? Is all of this worth that one phone call? I am told everyday by the people I trust the most in this world that I did not do anything wrong.

So why do I feel so awful? Why do I feel guilty? Was there something else I could have done? Why can people remind me over and over that I was not in the wrong, yet I still feel like I am?

These questions running through my mind are driving me insane. I can't sleep, I can't even think. When I do finally fall asleep, I dream about it.
I'm going to try to go to bed now, and pray to God that He can whip up some miracle for tomorrow.

Ilym.dyft.